Well, I havent updated my journal is so long so I figured I'd update while I have some free time.

I'm currently trying to enjoy my life as a young mom, I am proud to say that I have a 5 month old daughter named Amelia Ann. She's growing so big and looks so much like her dad but I dont mind, hopefully she gets some of my traits when she gets older, like my looks. Heh, but I'm in a good relationship and have made some of the best friends I could ask for on Subeta.

But, here's the reason why I'm posting. I know I wont get any sympathy on here, but I figured I'd tell you all anyway, whoever reads my journal. I was at work today on a delivery and I checked my cell phone to see that I had a voicemail. I was curious so when I listened to it, it was my friend Andrea and she didnt sound pleased but more upset. So I called her back and asked her what was wrong. She didnt want to tell me, since I was at work, but my damn curiousity had to get it out of her. One of my classmates that I had graduated with and one of my best friends, Kyle, was found dead in his mothers house, stated as unresponsive. He had gotten into a car accident a few days before and he kept having seizures. They dont know if it was a drug overdose because of his medication or if it was just a seizure that his body couldnt handle anymore.

I was eventually sent home for being so hysterical at work and have been crying ever since. I keep looking through my yearbook at the entry he left me and all the pictures of us and my friend Nick and it just pains me to realize that he's gone. He was so full of life and always laughing with a huge smile on his face. I'll never be able to hear his laugh, see him smile, hear his voice on the other end of the telephone, and it kills me to know that I'll never see him again.

I'm sorry to share that with you all, but along with my best friend dying, having a huge argument with my brother that might possibly end up not talking to him anymore, problems financially while trying to get out of my parents home, and with the stressful times of being a young mom, I'm way too overwhelmed.

I know some of you wont care or want to offer your comforting words, but this is a big deal for me and to lose someone that you've known since you were little, is a big deal to me. I dont care but if you want, you can leave a message, to whoever reads this.